Inside

lets runaway to be alone
and find a place to lose control
I wanna be inside your soul
take it all away
but for way too long
weve been bound by these chains
so your lips I must kiss
and your skin I must taste
(chorus)
Cuz I dont wanna fall right out of this cloud
cuz this just might be a dream
ya I dont wanna fall right out of this cloud
cuz your lying here with me
-
the world outside is dark and cold
so hold me tight and dont let go
Im sick of craving you so bad
Im sick of taking this so slow
but for way too long
weve been bound by these chains
so your lips I must kiss
and your skin I must taste
(chorus)
(solo)
(courus twice)

aching baby

hit the floor and run
barbies going crazy
touch is out of touch
Im aching for my baby
everybodys dumb
zombie like and speechless
wheres my precious gun
angry minds are teethless.
(chorus)
my aching baby aches for aching
I know that shes the one
shes mildly phyco I dont mind though
I love the way she loves to hate
-
laying by the door
huddled in the corner
tripping selfish self
somebody should warn her
Im living off of grass
cuz thats what Ive been given
cuz after all Ive done
I'll never be forgiven
(repeat Chorus)
(guitar solo)
shes starring at the sun!
(chorus twice)

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what once was

I felt inside of you a dream I thought was real
now that dream is gone and I can barely feel
I felt inside of you what I thought was true
but all I found where lies and a life I cant rewind
(chorus)
I wish I didnt know what I know now
I wish I could go back and be with you somehow
~
I fell in love with you, I thought it was for real
know the pain I felt, Know the pain I feel
I felt inside of you what I thought was true
but all I found were lies deeper than I knew
(chourus 2)
I wish I didnt know the things I know now
I wish I could go back and be with you somehow
I'd kiss away the pain, and wipe away your tears
I'd never let you go, I'd fight away your fears
~
(repeat first verse)
~
(chorus 2)
(guitar solo)
(chorus 3)
you what once was and never will be
the love of my life, the reason I breathe
the pain thats inside
a crippling desease
the blood on my wrists and the words I sing
end.

memory

I look in the mirror
I see everything I fear
it's like Im trapped inside my past
knowing the end is near
(pre chorus)
when will all this pain go away?
can't I live my life with you for one more day
(courus)
It's like knife without an edge
It's like awound that cannot heal
It's like a memory so cold
It's like a life where nothings real
~
I wish I could end this
I wish you could see what you have done
Its like Im trapped inside the fames
I know Im not the only one
(pre chorus)
(chorus)
(solo)
(pre chorus)
(chorus)
end.

take me away

I layed there crying in the corner contimplating suicide.
I fell asleep and woke up in your arms, you took my hand and let me fly.
I know its hard to believe that your all I need
I know its hard to believe
(chorus)
Take me away (four times)
~
Im trying not to fall in love with you but I fear that its to late.
You filled the emptiness killing me inside, and took all the pain away.
I know its hard to believe that your all I need
I know its hard to believe
(chorus)
(guitar solo/pre c)
(chorus twice)
end.

the theory of nothing

With eyes like cocaine and lips like heroin, it reminds me that shes the one.
Fire and propane get along better but she's hotter than a sweater in summertime.
(pre chorus)
She loves to hate and rape and wait for me to burn and bleed and live for nothing.
(chorus)
will you bite the hand that feeds
steal the life inside of me
give me things I dont deserve
switching off and taking turns
~
With a mind so twisted and a body like an angel, ever since the cradle you were meant to kill.
I dont really mind, infact I dont have a mind, I lost it when I found out that I was dead.
(pre chorus)
(chorus)
(bridge-
Why cant we work this out
start over with what we know now
cuz your such a pretty sight
when your not a whore (when your on the floor)
(repeat first verse softly)
(couus twice)
end.

StUpId GiRl

You sold me to forever again, trapped inside a dream.
Everything is spinning, I fear that this wont end
You and I were strung out on the word misery,
but without you I cant breathe
(courus)
stupid girl, cut yourself
just dont stain my bed
stupid girl, cut yourself
and get out of my head
^
though it feels like we are dead, the memory remains.
my sanctuary angel, a devil of a friend.
You and I were strung out on the word misery,
but without you I cant breathe
(courus)
(guitar solo)
(insrumental interlude)
(courus twice)

ammonia hose beast

I dont care if im wrong
I dont mind if you're right
I dont care if im stoned
I dont need you
I dont care if im gone
I dont mind if you leave
I dont care if im broke
I dont need you
(courus)
In your eyes im not here
I dont exist
I always knew it would come to this
never thought I'd feel this hate towards you
but somehow I knew

needles & guns (2004)

so I write it in a song
I write my story's end
with hell in every word
I let myself desend
^
(pre courus)
Im treated like a freak
Im tortured in my mind
you know as well as me
I wont see 25
(courus)
I lost myself somewhere inside of you again
I lay me down in addictions heart
crucify my reason to be sober
leave me with a needle and a gun
(repeat all)

runaway

Im too tired to sleep
so sick of counting sheep
Im bored and alone
and your not here
^
I went to your house
but you were not home
I left you a note
and it said...
(courus)
runaway with me
to a place where we can be free
lets leave the world behind
leave it all behind
^
Im packing my bags
not saying goodbye
take my hand
I'll teach you to fly
(courus)
I feel so stupid, nevermind
its what we wanted we'll be fine
Im so addicted to the taste
screw the world and runaway me...

I miss you

as I explore my misery
I always find myself to blame
as I bleed internaly
missing you
and I struggle just to breathe
trying to ignore the pain
as I live in agony
(courus)
missing you in my life
missing you by my side
missing you day and night
dont wanna spend my life
missing you
^
as I explore my memories
all I see is your pretty face
and I start to cry again
missing you
and I struggle just to sleep
trying to ignore the pain
as I live in agony
missing you
(courus twice)

diary entry on performing(march 13 05)

I am in love with music. When I hold my guitar in my hands and step up to the mic the lights go out and the roar of the crowd gets me high. I drift into a distant state of mind not much different than a weird sort of pleasurable coma thing.
I become one with the crowd, thier emotions flow through my veins and they somehow can feel the meaning of every word I sing. they feel my intense pain when I scream embracing my incredible love and adoration for them all.
peace, love, apathy,..colin w.

abuse me(edited)

Ive hit the bottom of my heartless ditch
happy pills have caused my itch
I love the taste of emptiness
It hurts to breathe, it hurts to piss
(courus)
I lie in bed starring into space
wondering how the hell I got to this place
the world is spinning in my head
I fell asleep and woke up dead
^
Ive cried a river in my room
trapped inside your teenage womb
addiction is like kinky sex
chained to the bed of all regrets
(repeat courus)
Ive had about all I can take
I see the stars and they are fake
I feel like jumping off a bridge
god cant fire me cuz I quit
^
abuse me!!!

Im not superman( my first song ever )

I'm not superman, can't save your life
your no supergirl and I don't mind
I lost everything to be with you
and now it's over, ya it's over
(courus)
I'm not superman
I can't save you from yourself again
just like I always have
I'm not superman
I can't save you from the fire
cuz you got yourself in
^
I won't become your slave again
you can try but you wont win
I lost myself to be with you
and now it's over, ya it's over
(courus twice)
the end

like a drug

another migraine
caused by crack cocaine
will I go insane
or will I see your face again
(courus)
will I runaway and hide
fool the world with this disquise
cause I wont be pushed aside
will you burry me alive
^
another stomach pain
caused by asphartame
will I go insane
or will I see your face again
(courus)
(solo)
(courus to outro)

drown

I feel so cold
I feel so alone
I love you too much to let you go
The distance between
Is like a disease
I love you too much to let you go
(courus)
so can I hold you again
can I taste your sweet kiss
can we runaway tonight
^
I'd like to believe
That your here with me
I love you too much to let you go
To drown In your eyes
erase all goodbye's
I love you too much to let you go again
(courus)
(solo)
(courus twice)
the end

without you

take me to a place called home
take my hand Im so alone
Im afraid of waking up
without you
It's so cold within these walls
what can stand will surely fall
I dont want to face this world
without you
(courus)
without air I cannot breathe
without eyes I cannot see
life's not worth living
without you
^
take me far away from here
paralize my every fear
Im afraid to live in fear
without you
I just want to hold you tight
I dont want to say goodbye
I don't want to live my life
without you
(courus twice)
(solo)
(courus twice)
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heart in a vase(original version)

your eyes are my abortion agent
taste is tasteless, I am absent
I take comfort in your pleasure
moods may effect the weather
(pre courus)
numb the pain for a while
laugh it off to fake a smile
teenage angst, If I may hint
no thought was put into this
(courus)
I cant stant being here
let's run away from this place
load up on happy pills
put your heart in a vase
^
I cherrish every bad decision
everybody s****s l***e s***n
I was born (in the worlds vision)
Jesus christ with no religion?
(pre courus)
(courus two times)
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a fractured lullaby

And if you think your sad
they'll say that your happy
and if you saved the world
I'd pretend to care
and if you fooled yourself
you would make me happy
and when you fall apart
I'll pretend to care
(courus)
your in and out of you
I'll mend your painless wounds
your lost in yourself
Im lost in you
^
And if you want me back
I'll say that your crazy
and if you saved yourself
I'd pretend to care
and if you think your sad
they"ll say that your happy
and if you saved the world
I'd pretend to care
(repeat courus)
(bridge)
what will it take to get you back?
what will it take to let you go?
what will it take to show you that I care?
what will it take ,I have to know...
(courus twice)
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dumb

dancing in the mud is always lots of fun
but dancing on the edge is dumb
i swear theres not a gun
im still having fun
but dancing on the edge is dumb
(courus)
Im dumb
way too, way too dumb
Im dumb ya
^
starring at the sun is always lots of fun
but starring at the edge is dumb
I swear there's not a gun
I'm still having fun
but starring at the edge is dumb
(repeat courus)
(guitar solo)
and I believe i can fly
and I believe I can fall
and I believe I can die
It's a drug
(repeat courus)
(outro)
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